How does the meaning of life evolve

Yah, thats the question I ask to myself whenever I think about my son. This little one is growing very fast and one day will grow so much that I will look like an old man in front of him as my father looks today. But there is a sense of pride that I bring to peopla around me. Will he be able to bring similar value system and success as I have got in my life. Does not matter... he should evolve as a good person, something that some people say i am not. But i dont mind because i alwasy wanted to be a good man. The world didnt take it in the right spirit. So for all those who are bad, i need to be bad and need to protect myself from them and sometime should pay them back in their own terms. He should not do that. He should not inherit that biting spirit from me but what will he do when bad people try to hit him? May be he will read my blog and will learn that it is necessary to be good in life but is also necessary to protect one's self esteem and respect and also fight for waht is right in life.. otherwise this is a very bad world and one wonders how good people will survive in this world!!!

Day-1, rather night-1

When I created this blog, my son was sitting with me and was smiling. He was reading what I am going to write on this blog. he is always sceptical about his father and also thinks that he must be an angryman. He imagines his father as a person who has no emotions and thinks that he does not like him which is wrong because he does not like him then whom does he like? Does he have a choice in life in anything? what was offerred to him in the platter of life he accepted that, the job, the family, the money and everything except of course his son whom he earnestly wished to have so that when he grows old and loses his vision, or ability to walk or even ability to speak, there will be his son.... will he be around or may be in a far far place with his girlfriend and family... but he loves him a lot and lot.. when will he grow up to understand these emotions .. will he ever grow up....to realize that every father sees his son as a hero who is going to take his name far ahead and above in life... at least his father did that for his grand father....

A father's wish

What one looks for in life is manifested in the child that he brings on. His sucecsses and failures are reflected on his second self-his child. His passion and desires to conquer the wishes comes as challenges that he wants to pass on to his child and thinks he can overcome them and lead the life to perpetuity. This desire for perpetuity and wish to win over death makes him to love, wish, care and build the life after and may be above him. This blog is for my son and my feelings for him. So when I will not be around and gone from this world, he will show this blog to his children and will also talk how much I loved him and what I wished him to achieve in life. How I wished what I could not do in my life and earnestly wished him to all these......